Month: April 2022

Ranwan (燃晚): Igniting the Night and Warming My Heart

An image depicting a scene from Erha, where Mo Ran sends Chu Wanning a message using fireworks. This official artwork is from the physical volume 3 release of Erha in China.

Happy (belated now) Easter!

In my slow return to blogging, here’s another old one from my Tumblr! As I mentioned in my previous blog entry, my brain has basically been consumed by Erha brain rot, so this is about that. Again. Listen, let me live, okay? Sometimes you just fall for a dumb husky and his white cat shizun and you can’t let it go ahaha. Especially when you think about how their ship name, Ranwan, a combination of Mo Ran and Chu Wanning, basically places “ignite” and “night” together, and you remember how Mo Ran once sent Chu Wanning a message using fireworks… So yeah, this blog entry will contain references to 18+ material from the novel, and will also contain spoilers, so proceed at your own risk!

But man. I just. Can’t. With Erha and Ranwan sometimes.

Like…they love each other so intensely. So ardently.

Mo Ran especially. And it’s to be expected, because he feels guilty over how he treated Chu Wanning before, but still…

It’s just so overwhelmingly soft (sprinkled with plenty of horny) and you know he practically worships Chu Wanning. Now that he finally sees Chu Wanning for who he truly is, he is horrified at his past behaviour but even more in love than ever, and he works so hard to show it while also trying just as hard to contain it.

And it’s just…so amazing??? Like, reading Mo Ran’s POV while he was wandering alone those 5 years is painful because you can sense his guilt in trying to piece himself into becoming Chu Wanning. Especially since Mo Ran had to come to the realization after two lifetimes that his two-lifetime’s worth of hatred for Chu Wanning is wrong.

That’s so hard to reconcile!

But to realize that is wrong and to realize that furthermore, the man you once hated saved you…

By now, Mo Ran feels as if he doesn’t deserve this second chance or to be in this world. But to have to couple that with the knowledge that in order for his life to still be here, Chu Wanning’s was the one that had to be sacrificed?

God.

Imagine the fucking remorse.

I’m just remembering Mo Ran standing in the rain, to the point of getting sick, hoping to be washed clean so he can see Chu Wanning without feeling like he’d stain him. Remembering Mo Ran doing good because it’s what Chu Wanning did.

And the fact he sees Chu Wanning in everything…from sunsets to sunrises, from flowers to snow…

It’s just. Such an intense form of love. Of missing someone. Of regret. Of longing.

And because of it when Chu Wanning finally comes back into his life—even before he realizes he loves the man—he tries so hard to care for him.

You can see it in the way he chants, “Respect him. Cherish him” over and over to himself. Mo Ran knows he’s fierce and capable of ruining Chu Wanning (although he’s arguably not as cruel as he believes himself to be), yet he restrains himself as much as he can around Chu Wanning. Because he loves him so much and he wants to do so much better and to be better so even when it’s hard for him to keep it in his pants, he’s still trying. It makes for some amusing scenes, but still…you can tell how scared he is of hurting Chu Wanning.

(Plus, he fears waking up to find that his entire second chance was nothing but a dream—as seen when he had that nightmare and needed so much of Jiang Xi’s medicine to dispel it—but even more than that, his worst nightmare is losing Chu Wanning again.)

Arghhh I have emotions. 🥲🥲🥲

New art released for Mo Ran’s birthday by the official Erha manhua studio.

His love is easily expressed in a more sexually violent manner, but he does try to be gentle. And in this life, he does try to be considerate, refusing to penetrate his shizun for some time (to the point of being mocked by Taxian-jun).

I mean, when they finally do get to have sex together in the inn, you can see it in the way that Mo Ran leans down and takes Chu Wanning into his mouth. Taxian-jun never did that.

But Mo Ran does it because he not only loves Chu Wanning (because Taxian-jun loved him too—just in an unfortunately twisted way), he worships Chu Wanning. When Chu Wanning anxiously cries that it’s dirty and tries to get him to let go, Mo Ran reassures him that every part of him is perfect and that everywhere he touches is the best.

And of course—even before the confession, Mo Ran’s intense love can be seen in the way he uses acts of service as a love language, making Chu Wanning food (including the tangyuan, which was made with his heart as well as his dick haha).

Chu Wanning muses when they first get together that despite them only just becoming a couple, it’s like Mo Ran has known everything about him for a long, long time.

And of course it’s true. He has. But it’s the fact he chooses to remember all of it, and despite it being hard work for him, he employs his knowledge. He was like that even before becoming Mo-zongshi, which is already a sign of his ardent longing and love.

He remembers how to give Chu Wanning medicine just right, and how he sleeps at night.

And later, he begins to express care by looking into how he eats and what he likes.

He does everything to make sure that Chu Wanning is happy and comfortable despite the latter’s difficulty in expressing when he is happy and comfortable.

When Mo Ran and Chu Wanning are longing for each other in the inn before they get together, Mo Ran laments that he feels like he’s doing a poor job because the cat he’s trying to pet sometimes hisses and swipes at him. But it’s actually because he’s doing too good of a job and Chu Wanning is falling even harder, so he lashes out to try and hide it. 🥲🥲🥲

Mo Ran, when set on loving someone, doing so much for that person despite assuming it’s hopeless (eg cooking breakfast for his shizun after longing for him in the inn), is just so sweet.

His love is already so ardent and full, but coupling that with his guilt…

After everything…he really does just want to hold that umbrella over Chu Wanning for the rest of their lives, in this lifetime. 🥺

Yeah.

The Ranwan feels are intense tonight. 😭😭😭😭

Some Thoughts on Why I Love the “Moron” (Affectionate!) That is Mo Ran

New art from volume 3 of Erha‘s physical books

So, looks like I’ve returned from my accidental hiatus! I’m sorry for the lack of updates; I just got swept up in so many other things, including some stuff about my real life that needed tending to, and my anxiety over that admittedly stagnated my creativity and energy. But certainly a lot of things have happened since then, so I wish to get back into the swing of things!

There are some articles for this blog I wanted to write before my accidental hiatus that I never got around to, and may not be as relevant anymore, but I’d still like to get them out of the way. But first, I wanted to share some of the stuff I’ve written on why I love Mo Ran (and by extension, Ranwan (the ship that is Mo Ran and Chu Wanning)) from The [Dumb] Husky and His White Cat Shizun (Erha he ta de baimao shizun)—because this novel has completely taken over my brain lately. Plus, Erha fans are more well-fed than ever (despite the continued lack of a release for the live-action adaptation—but that’s a topic to blog about for another day) since we now have a confirmed English translation of the novel, the manhua, and the original Chinese will soon be releasing volume 3 of the printed books.

Plus it was Mo Ran’s birthday on April 9, so you know what! I was so happily overwhelmed by all the new official merchandise coming from the Chinese book release of volume 3 and all the fan art for Mo Ran’s birthday that I want to yell about why I love this dumb (affectionate) husky!

First thing I should clarify for those unfamiliar with Erha. It’s a xianxia danmei novel, which means it’s about a gay romance and is from China and is an ancient Chinese-inspired fantasy. In it, the ruthless and cruel emperor of the cultivation world, Taxian-jun, kills himself after years of terrorizing the people, and he gets another chance at life when he wakes up as himself before he embarked on the dark path of becoming Taxian-jun. Now Mo Ran again, he decides to redo things and protect his crush, who he hadn’t been able to save in his previous life…but this is complicated by the fact that not only is his crush alive again, but so is his shizun (master), Chu Wanning, a man he shares a complex past with… This is a man he claims to hate, but who he was obsessively possessive and even intimate with in his past life. As Mo Ran sets out to rewrite his history, he finds that things were not as they seemed in the past life, and secrets are revealed as he is forced to reevaluate his feelings for people such as Chu Wanning.

And while I made the fun English pun of “Mo Ran” and “moron” for the title of this entry, his Chinese name is actually quite poetic! Mo (墨) means “ink,” while Ran (燃) means “to burn. To ignite, to light.” Not only do I love this character, I love his name too.

This is copied and pasted from my Tumblr. There will be some vague spoilers, so proceed at your own risk! I hope you enjoy perceiving my brain rot though ahaha. At the time, I wanted to write another essay on why Mo Ran is an amazing protagonist but when I attempted to on my Twitter, I felt like all I did was bark like a feral dog… It’s just really hard to do the words justice, you know?

But basically I’m just once again absolutely emotionally eviscerated over how Mo Ran is a protagonist with clear darkness in his heart from all the suffering he’s endured, and yet even in the face of that, he still tries so hard to do good.

I love that he’s our protagonist. That he’s not perfect; that he’s as capable of bad as he is good.

We see how he offers himself to Shi Mei for the flower, telling him that he wants to trade places with Chu Wanning because he has evil in his heart. And why would he do that? Because he just wants to preserve the light that is Chu Wanning in a world where such light can be so rare…even to the point of sacrificing himself. So it’s just. That dichotomy, you know? That acknowledgement by Mo Ran that he is not a good person and is thus worthy of the flower, yet the clear sign that he is still trying to do the right thing despite everything. Because saving Chu Wanning would be good for the world. And he was so young when he made that decision.

He was…He was so ready to die. He asked to be killed the moment he started doing evil—because he didn’t want to do those misdeeds, but also because he didn’t want to disappoint Chu Wanning. And he had such faith that Chu Wanning would do the right thing and strike him down immediately. 😭

How can I put into words the absolute deliciousness that is Mo Ran’s character, his arc, and his redemption?

Like he is crushed by such guilt…and he knows he is capable of some of the absolute worst, most cruel things, but he’s also not as bad as he thinks he is. Because with all the good things he’s ended up doing in the second life—a life where none of the things he did as Taxian-jun even came to pass—how could he not be a good man?

It’s just fascinating, isn’t it? That Mo Ran is like the sun, and yet inside him is this intense darkness, and it’s like…you could never guess, if you just looked at him. He always seems so radiant and warm and charming and open and kind.

But it’s a testament to his desire to be better and to do better for Chu Wanning. And you guys know I’ve screamed before about Mo-zongshi and how much he grows due to his love for Chu Wanning. How absolutely amazing it is seeing the soul-crushing guilt he feels finally settle in and the realization that the one he has been hurting is someone who has done so much good for him.

And isn’t it even more amazing, that Chu Wanning comes back and thinks, How can someone like this be so good? And at first glance, it feels like Mo Ran is “better” than Chu Wanning, because he’s friendly and shines so brilliantly. But in reality Mo Ran does all this because he wants to be even a quarter of the purity that is Chu Wanning—he wants to emulate those strict, heroic morals so that when he stands by Chu Wanning’s side, he won’t feel nearly as undeserving or dirty.He wants Chu Wanning to pay attention to him, but also wants to be worthy of Chu Wanning’s attention. And I just think that’s so beautiful. 😭

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